So Mason and I have been considering our options for delivery. Our current midwife and OB-GYN are no longer doing deliveries, which is an utter heartbreak for me. The last few years have really built our trust in them, and so to not have them at the delivery of this baby is hard to imagine. That said, we are running out of time (believe it or not) to figure out where we will go after June 1st when they kick us out.
Mason says he could go find us a manger and I shouldn't worry.
In the meantime we are trying to interview midwives in the surrounding areas, since no hospital in town will allow us a midwife delivery. Mason is excited that if we have a home birth, we will have to get a pool. Don't have the heart to tell him that a 30 dollar baby pool will do the trick. I suppose he will find out soon enough.
For me, knowing my own hopes and my own fears, I find the whole proposition of going to a hospital with rotating on-call OB-GYN's utterly terrifying. In town, that is how it is done. I can't imagine going into something so overwhelming and scary and not feeling a personal connection and trust with my health care provider. If I learned nothing else in the last year, I've discovered how much I need to trust the people who have my well-being in their hands.
The decision between a homebirth with a midwife and going out of town for a midwife is one we have not answered yet. Mason has a deep concern that I will snap into labor at about 5:30pm on a Friday night and will be forced to deliver his 1st born in the front seat of our car in rush hour. Its a valid concern.
The good news is that my health care providers all feel that I am a great candidate at this stage for a homebirth. Now if we can just get in with somebody. Most of those I have contacted are already booked for October. I guess all of that January snow has resulted in a miniature statewide baby boom scheduled for this fall. Regardless of what we plot, envision, or plan for, this baby will come--hospital, baby pool, or manger. That is the blessing.